Mitch lost his job again today.
as what happens when bad things happen to us, quite often, he sulks and i try to figure out to make it work out, how to make everything okay again, and how to make it better. It's stressful and messy and horrible, but here i am again.
So now my mind keeps going back to what i found last time he lost his job. Our desire to move out on be on our own. I found this little apartment in Roy, its terribly small and kind of scary, but i believe we could make it work. I think both me and Mitch are just so terrified of taking that much of a chance, what if it dosent work out, like everything else we have tried, what if it ends up biting us in the ass and we are in even more of deep then before. But how can we just keep doing what we have been doing. Maybe this constant job hoping is just natures way of telling us, its time to move on. There is something better, you just need to take a scary chance, a leap into the unknown.
The more i think about it, the more I think its the right thing to do. Mitch can transfer his school cred to the one up in Ogden. and we can be on our own. I desire it so much, something has to change, something has to be good for us. Because if it cant, if our lives are just one shitty thing after another, I don't know how long i can last.
So maybe, just maybe I can talk Mitch into thinking this might be possible, not only possible, but the best solution this cross roads we find ourselves..again.
http://www.utahhomes.com/property/details/348363/MLS-1207464/2182-W-5600-S-Roy-UT-84067.aspx?SearchID=7908832&RowNum=1&StateID=51&RegionID=0&IsRegularPS=True&IsSold=False
Something a little like that.
